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No rain today, but some yesterday.
It looks like it should be sunny today.
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No rain today, but some yesterday.
It looks like it should be sunny today.
We have had some nice sunny days here and I am enjoying it.
Unfortunately they are talking about a fair bit of rain for the next couple of days.
First thunderstorm of the year (as far as I can tell) happened this morning. Lots of rain, thunder and some serious lightning. I was able to see at least ground to sky bolts.
I think I got some real sleep last night, but I am still completely tired. Worse then yesterday. I am falling asleep at my desk.
I think I'll put this on hold until I am more awake. I am feeling the desire to write something, but the sleepiness is getting worse.
I'm at work on a Sunday.
And its sunny out.
Sigh.
After a lot of mental self torture about moving, I finally talked to Shauna about it. It's very obvious she doesn't want to move at all. The idea of moving out of this city scares her and she says it bothers her that I talk about it. This was really hard for me. I hated how it made her feel and it made me feel bad for doing it, but part of me still wants to move out to Vancouver more then anything else.
I regret talking to her about it, but then I dont really. I regret how it made her feel I guess. I want to move there more then anything, she doesnt and it made her upset and mad at me.
I wish I could make her understand how I feel about it. I feel trapped here sometimes. I feel stuck and that the time in my life is racing away from me so fast that I can almost feel the moments and minutes and seconds getting away from me. It's not that I feel old, its that I feel that there is so much I want to do and so much time is getting away from me or I am putting it to ill use. I feel terrified at the shrinking amount of time I have left. Terrified and I dont know how I can get that across to her when he locks up at the miniscule mention of it.
More another time.
I was at work and for once, it wasnt so bad a thing. I think that perhaps by coming in at the same time and working a full day in less stressful conditions (I only spoke to those customers I wanted to) it made my Monday look a lot better. And I think that I was able to relax more on Sunday knowing that I was productive over the weekend and that work wasnt going to suck right off the bat on Monday morning.
Sunday was nice, the morning was cloudy and kinda cold, but then the sun came out and it got really nice out. I spent some time on the balcony just watching the river melt and the sun shine. It was nice. I also got a chance to play some computer games that I hadnt played in a long while as well.
Thats enough for now, perhaps I will get some links up later.