Random Fusion

Ok so, right now I feel like just saying...

Please dont think in anyway this is whining or complaining or an attempt for sympathy. This is just shit thats floating around my noodle. Things I think about and want to say. If they were a big enough deal, I would be doing something about them.

I wish I was in better shape. I am trying to do better by my body, but its not happening yet.

I wish this web site looked better. I just dont seem to have the time to learn the skills to make this site better (that and I keep hoping someone takes pity on me).

I wish that Shauna came here. I get the impression that she hasnt come here in a year or more. Which to be honest, makes me sad.

I wish I had a better job. Dont get me wrong, I like working here, but it spends more time driving me nuts then it does making me happy.

I wish I lived in Vancouver. I really dont want to live here any more. I hate that this city closes so early. I hate that there is this stupid mentality of a prarie town. I want to see the ocean more often and the mountains every day and I dont think I can take another winter. I want green grass in the winter and blooming trees in early march. I want above freezing temperatures more often then not. If I miss snow I can drive into the mountains.

I want more money. I am getting tired of being in debt. I am tired of always paying out this money and not getting anything from it. The benefits i got from all the borrow money are used up and made better.

I am starting to feel age. I finally feel the past getting bigger and the future getting smaller. Theres getting to be less time ahead of me and more time behind me.

I want more free time

Ok. Thats enough for now. Again, please dont think that this is a plea for attention or for sympathy or for help. I just needed to get some things out of my head.

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Movalog

Learning Movabletype

Mac Hacked

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Surprisingly enough, work has been ok lately. Not as good as it has been in the past, but things this week werent as retarted as they could have been.

The number of machines waiting to be worked on is pretty low. I suspect this has more to do with people not bringing their computers to us to fix. Business has been slowing down more and more lately and I think (I hope) that the people above me, making important decisions, are getting more and more concerned about that.

I never realized how much I missed the sun until we had a whole week of it. The sun this week has been gorgeous, warming up more then just my body but my insides as well. The sun made me feel more happy and relaxed as well.

I think I might come into work for a bit on Saturday. Last weekend I felt anxious or distracted or perhaps lazy. I felt that I hadnt done anything worth while that day and it bugged me. When Shauna said that I should go to work if I was going to be all crazy and then it kind of hit me. I was going nuts because I wasnt feeling productive and I only really feel that way when I am at work.

Speaking of which...

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Dell Aquires Alienware! Link
This isnt totally surprising. Dell needs slash wants to get into the market that Alienware has completely dominated.

Play World of Warcraft? Get Hired by Yahoo! Link
Now if only that could happen to me.

Self Stirring Cup! Link
What the hell can you say about that?

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This is Matthew. He is one of the most important people in the world to me.

Colour Changing Conrete

Vista Delayed

I knew this was going to happen. How did I know? I was getting excited about Vista thats how. It neve fails. Just when I start to look forward to something new Microsoft is about to put out, they move it back. On the upside, this means that the product is getting more development time and more work, which is always a good thing in my mind.

ASCII Carpets

Vista Delayed Article Number Two

Analog Digital Watch

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Sunny outside today. But cold.

I hate this weather.

Work is fine.

Welcome to the short posts.

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Nothing yet today. Overslept.

No stairs.

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A weak 20 minutes

No stairs

Edit: Walked 8 blocks

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25 minutes

No stairs

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20 minutes today

No Stairs

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30 minutes

No stairs

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I hate talking about how I feel.

I was about to write a post here about how I feel about shit and I found that I didnt want to. I didnt want to talk about whats really bugging me and what I wish I could change.

I just dont.

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I spend a lot of time thinking about what I want from my job, either from my current employer or from my future employers.

What I really want is a place that pays me a realistic amount. Some place that lets me grow on a daily basis, not only in what I do but also in what I know. I am looking for a place that is sensible and growing. A place that treats employees properly and lets them know they are important.

The weather is warming up.

Last night Shauna and I were at the apartment of our friends who recently got hitched. It was nice to seem them and chat for a little while. I was commenting to Shauna that these friends are turning into our "couple friends", you know, that couple you only get together with to do couple things. She laughed and asked me if that was a problem, I said it wasnt but that I never expected that I would be doing things like "talking over tea with another couple".

I guess its all part of maturing.

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They are like Mondays, but a day late.

Getting warmer here finally and it appears that it may actually rain here for a bit this week. Wednesday is supposed to be sunny and a possible above freezing high.

Pop is back in the hospital. Dad called Sunday night to say that my Grandfather had to be rushed to the hospital for dizziness and blacking out. My dad says that the doctors want to put a pacemaker in.

I will put more here when I know more.

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The oscars are over and there were a few upsets and a few surprises. I watched for about and hour and then changed the channel and watched Mythbusters. Crash won best picture beating out Brokeback Mountain.

It looks like the below normal temperatures are done with now and we are beginning to see the shift toward spring temperatures, and there is even a chance of rain this week.

I hope that this summer is better then all the others.

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It snowed a fair bit yesterday afternoon and last night. The streets were pretty messy and appartently there were more then a few accidents. Smartly, I stayed in last night and watched TV.

I was watching TV last night and was kinda worried about how much i channel surf. Last night, I dont think I sat on one channel for more then one minute. I couldnt stop. Normally I'm not so bad, but it was just terrible.

Then last night I only got 4 hours of sleep because the cat thought it would be nice to get me up at 3:30 am.

I am very tired.

Sigh.

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Nothing much new under the sun here. Working harder then I should and being more stressed out then I should. The weather has warmed up slightly and they are saying that we are going to get a whole lot of snow today.

Shauna, my Dad and I went to MTC last night and caught "The Innocent Eye Test". A very nice comedy about a art deal gone crazy and a plutonium brief case no one wants.

I should be writing more here, I know. But I just cant seem to find the serious motivation. Perhaps when the weather gets a little better and I feel less winterish.

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