Random Fusion

Monday morning blahs, or perhaps this morning it might be closer to BLEEERARGAAHHERGES!!

First. The people who live in Shauna's building are apparently unaware that anyone else lives there and so act in a appropriate manner. The people with the elephant upstairs must have been out for the evening because they were fairly quiet, but several other folks in the building made up for that. I could hear loud music playing well after midnight and it sounded like there was some sort of stomp party going on in another apartment somewhere below us.

Second. Shauna and I are completely different sleepers. She likes her bed to be very warm and she likes to wear PJs to bed. I like my bed (and bedroom) to be cool and I sleep in boxer shorts. Thusly if I am comfortable, she is too cold and if she is comfortable (like she was last night) I am a massive puddle of sweat. If I am the least bit over warm, I can not sleep at all.

Third. I prefer box spring or futon beds to waterbeds, Shauna has a waterbed. I lay funny when I sleep and when I sleep on the water bed it messes up my back bad. So my back is hurting this morning.

Fourth. For some reason, Shauna, who usually can not contain her body heat (thus the warm bed requirement), was a bloody oven and was aggressively snuggling me. I couldn't push her away fast enough (which is usually not the case, I love to hold her close in bed) and so she was radiating her oven heat all over me making it harder for me to sleep.

Fifth. I have had this cold hanging on to me for the last month or two and so last night I took some nyquil with some neo critron to help me sleep. It didn't help at all, and in fact by 2am all I was doing was tossing and turning and at 5am I had to get out of bed I was getting so bad.

So, as you can see. I am a little unpleasant at the moment and would much rather be in my own bed, sleeping the morning away.

But how did the weekend go you ask? Ok I will spill the beans.

Friday
Friday evening found me at Buffalo Bills in Transcona, have a steak, a spud and a Pepsi with Sherry, Adam, LeAmber and Ian. Sherry had just finished up her courses at a local college so they were having some sort of fund raising dinner for her class. The dinner was good and the company was better. I had fun being out with people and having a good dinner.

Saturday
Saturday morning found me at work at 8:20am (grrrrrr) doing interviews for a search we are doing. That took up almost all of the morning and I wasn't able to get back home until about 1:30, I spent the rest of the afternoon doing laundry. Weee Fun! Saturday night found me out with friends at a roleplaying event and then on to a VERY late dinner at Humpty's (Perkins type restaurant).

Sunday
Did nothing. Went and got Shauna when she got off work, went shopping at Polo Park and then back to Shauna's place. More nothing was done and then we went to bed. Oh! We watched the ring. It was just as scary the second time!

Laters.

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Working on adding a site counter to my web site. Just waiting now for the email saying that I am all registered and stuff.

Ok, I was going to ramble on for a few paragraphs about some general stuff, but I just did something that I think I should comment on. When last bit of the first line of todays post I originally put in another word other then "stuff". I had actually used the four letter S word. I then stopped for a moment, deleted it and put in stuff and I think I will leave it like that. But it got me to thinking of why I did it.

I choose not to swear that much, or at all, here for a couple reasons, some subconciously done unless I think about it. The main reason that I choose not to swear is that I feel that it isnt really necessary to use the F word to get my sentiment across. When I write, I feel that I can get what I want to say across without using swears or vulgarities. Other reasons are kinda sub reasons of that one. I dont swear here because I feel that it might keep some people who find my site from coming back. Swears may not be something that my family wants to see me write about or use online. My friends may not want to read about me ranting and raving about something using the F word 233 times. Child protection software might block me out if I swear too much (not that I am writing for the pre-schoolers here) or other reasons. So I limit the swearing that I do and make mental notes of the times I do.

Now, all that being said, I do not believe in censorship of any kind. The minute I let someone choose what I can and can not see, is the moment that I loose self control (not going all crazy like, but rather the full control of me, myself and I, the ability to fully control who I am, what I am, what I do and what I see) and free will. My government does not have a right to say what I can and cannot see, they have the right to control how I procure the information (making it law to sell adult material in such as fashion so as to make it harder to get it if i am not 18), but I choose what I want to see.

While I am a minor my parents have the obligation to make sure that I am not in contact with information that I can not understand or comprehend. It is a parent's responsiblity to ensure that their children are mature before they get their hands on innapropriate material. If this means that your children will see naked people on tv or violence or political ideas you dont believe in, then it is your responsibility (no on elses) that they are mature enough to see it or hear it and if they are too young, then it is up to you to ensure they dont see it or hear it.

When I turn 18 however, the age in which I become an adult, I have every right to look at anything I want, read anything I want, listen to anything I want and it is an insult to me to be told that I cannot listen to some band because my local, provincial or federal government says it is immoral or wrong. Who am I to judge what someone else can or can not listen to or look at?

Again I have made another long winded and rambling post. Please pardon if the ideas dont flow too well, I write this shit on the spot as I think of it.

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Something people might want to read. Blogging is getting a lot of press lately.

CNN.com - Soldier 'bloggers' report from war - Mar. 26, 2003

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Australian Move Update

Now news is good news as they say some times.

Nothing has developed yet from Shauna's uncle, so we are patiently waiting things out to see what to do next. When something happens, you will read about it here.

Eventually.

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Hahahahha. I found this web site. Put it in the random link section!!! Hahaha!

Perfect for this site and that area.

Random.org - True Random Number Service

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War Comments
It looks like things are getting harder for coalition forces the closer that they get to Ba-

SIDE NOTE

Ok, I was going to comment about the war and other stuff, but someone has provided me with a really good rant! There is a scam going on right now, that most people aren't really aware about. It involves toner cartridges for businesses. For some time now Company A (I won't give their real name here as it could get me in trouble) has been calling my place of employment with "special deals".

Now this is the scam. Person 1 from Company A calls you up and says that they have printer cartridges for you. They say that these are original OEM cartridges (direct from HP say) and that they have two waiting for you. They ask for your direct line if you have one so they can have someone else get ahold of you and then hey tell you that they have these cartridges at a warehouse and that you will be contacted shortly by someone there. At no point do they say anything about cost, invoices, or bills. If you don't say no to them it is basically agreeing to take the cartridges. So about a month later (just long enough for you to forget the whole odd conversation, someone else phones you up and says "Hi, we have your cartridges in stock and waiting to be mailed to you, person 1 didn't get your mailing address, can I get it now?" and you, not really remembering the conversation, say (they hope) "...uhhh sure, ok its blah, blah blah etc etc street". Then the guy says "Great and who can I make the invoice out to?" BAM! If you tell them this you are screwed. I almost got caught with this scam and was super mad when I realized what they were trying to do. And just now, as I was trying to figure out how to spell the name of the capital city of Iraq, the warehouse guy (Person 2, and partner of Person 1) phoned me up and said he still had one of my cartridges there for a 15% discount and how did I want them to invoice me? So rather then post the war stuff, I thought I would vent.

Who the hell do these people think they are? How dare they try and scam people like this? Never have I spoken to anyone lower on the human food chain! Politeness will immediately go out the window when these idiots phone me again.

END SIDE NOTE

-ghdad, even after they had bombed the shit out of the city, surrounding areas and military support locations. It is beginning to look like the Iraqi army let the coalition forces come in land and resist them a little closer to home. It is very apparent now that this war will not be over in a week like the last one was. This war will be longer and harder then anything they have had to face yet. I hope that the coalition forces come out on top, stay safe, and end this war as fast as they can.

Personal Comments
Went and saw Over the River and Through the Woods last night with Shauna and my dad. It was a absolutely hilarious play about family and what family means. It was also very sad. The link will tell you more about the play.

Slept like an insomniac last night, tossed and turned and couldn't stay asleep. My nose was all stuffed up and at 4am I had to go lay on the futon so as not to disturb Shauna with all my damn tossing and turning (see? that's how much I love her, rather then keep her awake and make her tired for work today, I went and slept on the cold futon out in my living room).

Well... that's all for now.

Laters.

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Well, I guess I should have said in that previous post where I was. Oops.

Saturday night was Werewolf night for Shauna and I. Every third week on a Saturday evening, we go an play in a roleplaying game called Helios Rising. Now this is a Live Action Role Play game otherwise known as a LARP game. In this game we pretend to be werewolves. I could try and explain it but its easier to just go to the following web site:

White Wolf

The game was running late and I had been up since 4am and was beginning to get so tired that I just wanted to go home and pass out. Luckily enough, when I went back to the game from putting up that post, they were wrapping things up and I was on my way home 45 minutes later, thank god for that.

Saturday was an absolutely gorgeous day! The sun was out for the whole day and everything was nice and warm! Shauna and I went out for dinner to our favourite place, Wasabi, and had a nice dinner. We then went off to the werewolf game. It was good to go, seeing as we hadn't been in such a long time.

More to come later.

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Late night.

Very tired.

Want to go home.

Damn, damn late.

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An absolutely gorgeous day is shaping up outside. The sun is shining brightly and there is a bare hint of a breeze. As you can tell this is a very early post for me on a Saturday morning. I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night for some reason (bed was too warm, nose was all stuffed up, etc etc) so I was up with Shauna when she went off to work today at 6am. Yes thats right, I was up at 6am on a Saturday even when I didnt have to be. Gah!

I am going to spend some time cleaning the apartment and airing it out, it has been a while since I was last able to open the windows in the apartment and let it air out for a bit. It will also give the apartment some needed light. It seems to have been a long dark winter this year, so little sunlight came about over the course of the last few months and I and I guess many other people seem starved for natural light.

Just finnished a huge post about computer gaming over at Two Fishes a site that I work on with Shauna.

I will probably post more here later, but right now, I am all out of posting juices.

Laters

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Time for a little spring cleaning!

Things have been moved around the site, archives are now at the bottom, there are new blog links, I added a web cam section and I finally put in a random link!

Go me.

You will see more changes as the day goes along including a web log tools sections of links, possibly some sort of rating system in place for blogs i read(but probably not for a bit), a Australian links section and other neat stuff as well.

More to come!

Again, Go me.

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In a recent post, I made a comment about how I feel about politics and why I don't really post anything about politics. However, since there really isn't anything else that people are talking about, I am going to make today's post about the war and my feelings about it.

Firstly, I belive that our soldiers deserve full and proper respect. To go into a dangerous situation that could lead to your death takes a large amount of courage by any standards. It takes a strong person to not only rush headlong into danger but also to be able to think clearly and concisely when things can, could or already are blowing up around. To be able to work hard for long periods of time under extremely stressful conditions with little or no sleep takes a wealth of training and resolve. The people who are good soldiers, are strong in mind and body and can do things that many would balk at.

I can not stress those feelings enough. Soldiers deserve a great amount of support, no matter what.

War is something that no one can say they find pleasant. Historically, war is an inevitable thing. Since that first ape picked up a stick and bashed it over the head of the other ape, fighting has been going on. Hell, fighting has been going on since there was more then one microorganism on this planet. As soon as competition for resources occurs, then fighting is inevitable. War is a fixed feature in the history of man and will be for a long, long time. War in my life time has involved weapons of great destructive power, terrorism and of great civilian losses.

I feel that war is a last resort. It should be used only if nothing else can be done. It should be approached with great trepidation and caution. But that being said, when all opportunities have exhausted themselves, then war should not be approached half heartily but with vigor and desire to see it over and done with as fast as possible by any means necessary.

Secondly, it is the responsibility of the invading force to help the civilians (who will get caught in the middle and will suffer) of the country they are invading survive in the coming months after a war. War disrupts food, water and electricity. It wasn't the fault of the average citizen that his country needed invading and so he shouldn't be made to suffer after the fact.

Lastly, it is the utmost responsibility of the invading country to treat their defeated foes with respect. War crimes are not committed by properly trained soldiers. There should be no reason to loot or steal or rape. Doing these things blackens the eye of the army in which they are involved in.

I know this was awfully loose, disjointed and rambling, but that's kind of the way I think.

*Smile*

I will post more information later if something of interest catches my eye and I am sure that this isn't the last post I will make about war in general and the war in I

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Unless you just woke up from a coma, you know that theres only one thing on people's mind this morning.

CNN.com

Listening to the live radio feature on CNN.

Can't imagine I will write about anything else today.

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Australia Update

Shauna's uncle has been unwell (none of your business with what) the last couple of days and hasn't had a chance to look at my resume yet. So everything is kind of on hold until he can look at it and tell me what he thinks.

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Found a very interesting link last night and didn't have time to blog it so I am doing it this morning while I have a few moments here.

Net Effect - Software Reviews - CNET.com

I don't think that I am, by any stretch of the imagination, a journalist. If I took courses at a local college or university about journalism and then got a job at a newspaper or a tv station, then I would be a journalist and I could call myself such if I wrote news related items here.

I choose, specifically, not to write too much political commentary here for two reasons, the first being, I really don't care two shits about politics and two, I don't think I know enough of the facts to make politically related statements.

I write here for one reason only. It is the most important reason for any writer, I write her for myself. To improve my writing skills, to improve my thinking about stuff and to make myself happy. I know I don't get that many people here to read what I write, so for now, I write for me. That other people, my dad, my friends, my loved ones, come here and read what I write with any sort of interest, pleases me immensely. But it still doesn't change the fact that I write for me.

Thanks to those who come and read what I write. I hope that what I write gets better and better and that you keep coming back for more.

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Found this site through a series of links (which isnt important to what I have to say here) and I thought it was important that I say something here about it.

Raging Cow: Pasteurize This!

That is not a link to a blog. That is a link to a product advertisement. Apparently Dr Pepper and 7Up are putting out a new product called Raging Cow. Looking for a new angle for marketing the geniuses over there, decided to use blogging as a way to reach the young and hip (does that mean I am hip? Doubt it).

Reading through the blog and the site, it is hard to tell that all of it isn't real. Now wether or not this was intended, I don't know. What do I think? That in their attempt to reach a younger audience with a new fad that is sweeping the Internet, the marketing people failed to realize that yes, lots of kids are keeping online journals and blogs but that, the core group of bloggers, the people who write in blogs every day and have been doing so since before it was popular, do not appreciate what the site is trying to do.

There are numerous serious and thought provoking blogs out there. The people who write in them are serious writers who take what they do as seriously as the guy who writes for the wall street journal. To use, I believe falsely, blogging as a means of advertising in such a manner (advertising is a necessary evil) is wrong and misleads people.

I cant say that you should boycott Dr Pepper for this. Just be aware. Sometimes, things are not what they seem.

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The weather and the job pressures have finally gotten to me. Shauna and I are working hard to see if we can get our butts to Australia. She has a uncle that lives there and he has agreed to let us stay with him and help me find a job.

I want to do this. I am tired of the cold winters. I am tired of the slush and ice and snow. I am ready for some adventure. If we should happen to succeed in this, I will either get myself a moveable type web site or keep using this one. I will document the move and record stuff here as much as I can.

I'll keep you all informed about this as information comes in to me.

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Rare post from home, I seem to do most of this stuff when I am at work on my laptop. Yup, that's right this post is coming from the big dog at home.

Things have not been good lately. I will freely admit it. I am filled with self doubt and worry about a hundred and one different things. At the moment I am employed by a consulting firm in Winnipeg doing their administrative assistant work. I also do all of the office management work and occasional computer consulting. Now before you go and think that I must be super busy and get paid a lot of money, let me tell you a few things.

The company I work for has two people fully employed by it, me and the boss,owner,president/head honcho you pick the right word.

Work is rare. No let me rephrase that. There is lots of stuff to keep us busy. There is no money. We are working hard on several projects ranging from human resources work to interim management of a large company that's just forming. For all the work we are doing, there isn't a whole lot of cash.

I have a university degree and a computer certifications from Microsoft. I have LOTS of job solid job experience and skills. But I am making a pittance.

I could take up several web pages talking about my employers eccentricities, but I wont. I will say, however, that working for him is a continual test in patience and continually pushes against my nonconfrontational nature. If ever someone could change their natures, I would say I am on my way.

I don't make enough money. That's plain and simple. I have for a short while, lived outside my means and now I am paying for it. No one is to blame really but me. Which is what is making this so upsetting. I really cant rant at my employer. I cant rant at people who owe me money or my bank for taking too much money from me to cover bank loans I have.

So without any real point to vent my emotions at, I sit here and worry. I am worried that come the end of the month, I wont be able to afford my rent. I worry that to make sure I can eat for two weeks, I am going to have to not pay my bills, which means that I will have to cancel some things. TV will be going for sure and internet could be next. I am worried that my time at my current employer has worn away all my computer skills ( I knows lots..but I am unsure of that knowledge now since I have used so little in the last three years) and that because of that, I will have a very hard time finding a job doing what I want. I am worried that my boss will be unwilling to do anything to make his most important employee happy and that I will be forced to leave. I am worried that I am going to be 40 and working in some low paying job, barely getting by and having to realize that at 65 or 75 I will have to take a second job somewhere to supplement my old age pension. I worry that when tax money comes due, I wont be able to cover that as well and I will be in trouble there. And I worry about the knowledge that all this is at its base, my own fault.

I know it is my own fault at some level because I spend more money then I can afford.

I know that worrying will do me absolutely no good, but can't really seem to stop.

And I am scared. Scared that this is going to get harder before it gets easier.

I think I need to go hide under my bed covers now.

Goodnight.

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Bad day.

I dont feel like writing anything more then this at the moment.

Might be something later tonight.

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Weekend adventures are over and another work week has begun.

Woke up late this morning and decided that it wasnt late enough and I rolled over and went back to sleep for another 30 minutes. Glad I did, it's busy today and I think if I had gotten here early, I would be half way insane by now and its only 10am.

The social was a lot of fun and I got to see some people that I hadnt seen in a few weeks, namely the folks from the werewolf game I play in. It was fun to hang out socially with a few people and just talk non-game related stuff. Drinks were insanely expensive and the coke was flat and cheap. The music wasnt too bad but it could have been more modern. All that being said, I am glad I went.

Edited for interruptions

Ok, the day now officially sucks ass. I need a new job and a winning lottery ticket.

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Another day, another post.

Going to a friend's social tonight. For those of you who read this and dont know what a "social" is, I'll explain. Sometimes when people get married here, they need to a little extra cash for the event, so to generate a little money, they hold a gathering. They sell tickets to this gathering, usually anywhere between $8 and $10. Sometimes there is a band but more often then not there is a DJ. Alcohol can be served and most often is. Food is always served later in the evening. Lots of people attend these and many times there are people there that the couple throwing the social dont know.

Watching Sexy Beast right now. A absolutely riveting movie about violence, crime and strength of personality.

"When sociopathic gangster Don Logan (Kingsley) tries to recruit an ex-partner in crime (Ray Winstone) for a high-stakes heist back in London, the retired criminal refuses, favouring the legit life after serving a prison term. But Logan won't take no for an answer. Tension hits the fever-pitch as this battle of wills plays out a story that is as funny as it is terrifying as it is terrifying."

It's an absolutely amazing movie and Ben Kingsley performance is amazing. It's as far as from Ghandi as you can imagine.

See this movie.

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Another day, another frozen appendage. I can not believe how hard winter is holding on to this city. Its kinda like someone who moves in and stays on your couch and no matter how many hints you drop that he should go now, he doesnt. After a while you begin to hate the person staying on your couch, because they wont leave, you didnt really hate them before, but now you do.

This morning it was bitterly cold out and it was only because of the lack of wind that Shauna and I got to the bus stop without having our noses fall off. The bus was surprisingly full of people for 630am (ugggghh) and when we got downtown, the streets were in full rush hour mode and people were groggily shuffling off to work.

I got to work at about 7am and went off down to the hotel to get some food (I love the fact that there is a hotel attached to my office building). Breakfast was toast and hashbrowns with OJ and pepsi to drink. I know, I know, who the hell drinks OJ any more? sheesh!

Work was bad, but now thinking about it, it could have been a lot worse. The phones were about a busy as they usually were and my boss was in a long meeting at about mid morning till about lunch. This gave me time to post here, read some web pages and chat for bit (Hi Matthew!). The afternoon was insane and it makes my head hurt to just think about it. We have been way, way, way busy lately and I am in desperate need of a vacation of some sort. Now that I said that, I am thinking I dont want to go to work tomorrow morning. Hmmmm I could always go in on Sunday.

It wasnt any warmer when I left work and to make matters worse, I missed the 430 bus and had to wait until 450! Gah! I hate missing my bus.

Ok. Well thats all the fun I had in the last few hours.

Peace out peeps.

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Up until a few moments ago, I though the only person who came to my web site with any sort of regularity was my girlfriend. My dad hasn't even been here more then twice in the last few months, and now, I find out my good friend out in California, Matthew, has been coming here regularly! So now that I know I have a regular readership I have responsibilities!

Oh man the pressure.

Hehehehe.

Matthew's website can be found in the Blogs section right underneath the absolutely fantastic, gorgeous, funny, beautiful person who is my girlfriend.

More to follow tonight.

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Ok, this is absolutely strange.

I was looking at my referrer logs for the last little while and it seems someone was sent here looking for "Drunk, Pooped, Girls"

Huh?

Yahoo! Search Results for drunk pooped girls

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Adventures from the Lounge Part IV

Long time since my last full post. So this is gonna be a long one.

Love Life.
Perfect. Everything else is none of your business :).

Personal Life
Roommate is moving out in about 5 weeks and while she and I get along well, I am, for numerous reasons, glad to see her going. I have never lived on my own and the prospect of living on my own (until Shauna moves in) is very exciting. Mind you I dont own a tv, dishware, a microwave, a showecurtain or a phone, but other then that I am looking good. I am hoping that having only me in the apartment will make it a little more appealing to Shauna, who has expressed some reservations about moving into the place. The rent will be tough for me to meet if bonuses are rare and far apart so I am hoping that work gets really busy for a while so I can get ahead on the rent.

Went to my mom's place for the weekend. It was nice, I hadnt been out there for almost a year and it was fun to go spend some time with her. I got there late on Friday night (work was busy and I couldnt get out any earlier) and we watched a couple of movies before calling it a night. Saturday was spent going to Brandon with a friend of hers and a couple of "clients" from my moms place of employment. Sunday was nice, but short, we had time to watch a movie and eat some junk food before my mom had to take me to the bus depot to get on the bus. Sunday ended with dinner at The Keg with my dad. Thanks dad!

Shauna is working lots lately and I am so glad, because she is much happier when she is working and getting money. Her shifts have all been night shifts and so I dont get to see her all that much, but I dont mind since she is working.

I absolutely love her.

My Job
Work has been insane lately. We are working on several search jobs at once, one of which I am handling on my own and it is taking up a lot of my time in the office. On top of the job I am doing on my own, I am providing support on three other searchs at the same time. Basically I am doing all the leg work for four searches and all the rest for one. I want to try and spend more time working on my computer certifications and my learning. I am trying to learn Flash, HTML and PHP. All of which is going super slow.

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