Random Fusion

Yay!

Today I upgraded my Blog*Spot account to a "Plus" account. There is no more large ads at the top and I can now host images on the site. All of which is very cool. I still can't have a RSS feed coming into the page but other then that the site is what I want it to be.

Not totally sure what to write about today so I think I might just ramble for a few moments about some random stuff in my life.

Work
I am now trying to actually learn stuff from work so that I have a skill set to take with me when I leave. Not that I wasn't trying to learn stuff before, but I wasn't trying to store up what I was learning. Human Resources work seems, to me, to be in large part just a lot of common sense. You treat people decently, help them do their job better and make sure that the company doesnt take advantage of them. Anyway, thats all the work stuff for now.

ASIDE
Ok. I feel like shit now. I had a complaint about a fellow player in one of the LARP games I play in. I caught one of the people who runs the game on msn and let this person know about the complaint and what I was going to do in regards to it. Lisa was on her lunch break, only an hour of course, and I wasted her time with something petty. I feel completely low now because I KNEW she only had a short time for lunch and I KNOW how annoying it can be when you get bugged by players when you do not want to deal with game stuff.

I apologized to her and she told me she had no hard feelings for me, but she was frustrated by me wasting her time. I feel pretty shitty now.
ASIDE

Personal
Personal life is going good. My room mate is moving out in the spring and Shauna is going to move in with me as soon as possible after that. I am looking forward to that.

More later.

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Ok.

Here is today's words.

As you can see by the time and date stamp, its a little late. Yup. I am on my way to a local club, which is having its "Goth Night" and I am expecting Shauna here any moment now. We will go out and drink and listen to loud music and what not. I expect we shall run into the people she knows that go there regularly and hang with them.

I dont really have a whole lot to say today. Perhaps I'll feel more creative tomorrow.

I guess thats about it for today.

Dave, What are you doing Dave? Don't do that Dave.

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Had a big idea. Started to write about it. Changed my mind.

More later.

Perhaps.

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New post coming soon.

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I did have a nice big, huge long blog written earlier. It took me two hours to write and was some of the best writing I have done in a long time. Then, my web browser decided to eat it and it?s gone. So now I have to try and rewrite it because some of what I said was important and needed to be said. This time, however, it?s getting written in Word and copied in when I am done. Stupid Internet Explorer. The first time around I was going to open the blog with an homage to Good Morning Vietnam, but it sucked so I killed it. The second time around I made mention of this fact and then said I might do it later. Now, upon reflection, I?m going to go with my gut feeling and not do it at all. Ever. It just looked lame.

?Every minute is another chance to turn it all around.? ? Sophia, from Vanilla Sky

Monday, I decided to take that saying to heart and I have been working in earnest to turn it all around. The vehicle that is my life has been moving pretty fast in its current direction, so the turn is wide and slow, but its occurring. I am making every effort to recertify myself. I am making every effort to learn new things such as html and programming. I want to get my MCSA (Microsoft Certified Systems Administrator) and then get some certifications from Macromedia, which will be insanely hard I have no doubt. But I am tired of where I am now, what I am now, what I know now and where things are going. So I am changing.

Times have been a little rough for Shauna lately. The hospital hasn?t been calling as often as it should (which should be every damn day in my opinion) and the money has been a little tight. I worry about her a lot. I worry that the weight of her situation will keep her from trying as hard as I know she can. I worry that she won?t do all that she can.

tangent
Shauna is an amazingly intelligent, hard working and beautiful young woman. I know that her current situation has nothing to do with how hard she works (she is most certainly not lazy) or how smart she is (she is incredibly intelligent).
/tangent

I think her situation is making it hard for her to invest the effort. Looking for work is like dating. No one wants to be alone. We all want to be with someone and to get love and give love in return. That being said, dating is hard work both emotionally and physically. Rejection is never easy to take and the fear of it can keep us from trying. So she holds back. I want her to fight as hard as she can to get up and out of where she is now and get on to being Shauna Mulligan, Ph.D. I want her to rejoice in every dollar earned and every A+ she gets. But I can only do so much. She has to do the rest. Only you can do it babe. I love her immensely. I want to be with her for as long as forever. I want make her happy every moment of every day. I also want her to be strong, independent and self reliant. I want her to confident in her abilities as a health care professional, whether that is a doctor or a nurse or a nursing assistant.

She can and will do it. As will I.

Posted by Random Fusion at 12:47 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)

Ok. Journal entries will now occur here and the rest of the site will be done as per normal. I like the way that BlogSpot does things. I like the look and feel of the site so you will probably see more here then anywhere else. I will most likely post more later.

Peace Out.

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